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Something I felt like sharing!! 

I have been thinking a lot life in recent weeks and haven’t always kept my confidence or a clear picture of what I wanted from life. I always considered life as an open book that is just written through time and never really given a thought of how to make it the picture clearer. I know that life isn’t a simple character and requires depth. I have been adding more depth to my personality more stability to who I am. At this point I still don’t know who I am or where I am suppose to be going or who will be there when I get there, but I can hope that certain people that have entered my life remain a part of it when I get to where I am going.

                Fact is that I can’t stand leaving any stone unturned or shifting my focus from what I thought matter the most. For the better part of twenty years wrestling was in some form or fashion the most important thing in my life. In recent weeks and months wrestling my interest has shifted and I haven’t been paying much attention to wrestling for various reasons. I’ve tried focusing on a more variety things as opposed to just wrestling. I added more depth to my personality as oppose to just fixating on pro-wrestling. It doesn’t mean that I like it any less it’s just that I don’t want to spend so much time focusing on one thing at this point like I used too.

                At this point, I have put wrestling on the backburner just until I figure out the best way for it to fit in to my daily life. I use to spend every waking moment of my days focused on wrestling in some form or fashion, but that’s not the case anymore. I know that maintaining wrestling express is still my responsibility and it is something I take pride in, but it’s not my main focus anymore. I gave a lot of myself to the site the last five years and it’s been a good distraction. Right now, though I’m really trying to focus on myself and make myself better as I’ve really started just figuring out issues that I’ve been dealing with for the last couple of years.

                 I love pro-wrestling and always will love pro-wrestling with all my heart it is a major part of who I am, but it is not all of who I am. I’ve become a loving, caring, sensitive, and funny individual who is actually establishing friendships with people and slowly moving out of my shell. I love who I am becoming, because I’ve finally found the confidence to be who I always could be and have found people who let me be who help me find my potential. It’s not that wrestling was stopping that it’s more that I was hiding behind wrestling in an attempt to avoid figuring out difficult things and asking the hard questions.

                This isn’t what I was going to talk about, but this was something I clearly needed to open up about and vent a little. Wrestling will always have a place it’s just not number one anymore! I need to get better at managing my time before I can figure out how much time to spend on wrestling.


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